Eu....

Prometi a mim mesma de que não iria mais chorar, de que iria ser a última vez. Eu fiquei feliz, de algum jeito ou outro, e eu não quero perder esse sentimento de vista.
É tão bom quando você se vê livre de todos teus problemas, você não tem mais nada de ruim para pensar e tudo se ajeita, tudo volta a ser como era.
Nunca tive felicidade completa e nunca terei, porém nunca fui uma completa infeliz e nunca serei.
São esses pequenos detalhes da vida que fazem diferença...
Eu acho que estou bem, de qualquer jeito. Eu me pego pensando no mesmo que antes por pura preguiça, por pura idiotice.

Ah vá, toma no cu manolão, to bem sim! IRAIARIARIARIRAIRA DORGAS brimks ♥
mas é sério

Minha vida tomou um curso diferente e não estou com medo de segui-lo. Ora, por que não tentar de novo?
Eu posso, eu quero e eu devo.
Ninguém pode me impedir e mesmo que pudessem, eu não pararia.
Porque a vida continua, caro telespectador.

Levou um tempo para que eu pudesse digerir aquelas palavras.
"Como se eu estivesse morta".
Mas era assim mesmo que eu me sentia. Eu tinha jurado para mim mesma que estava melhor, e eu realmente estava.
Por que eu disse aquilo?

- Hey, hey! Não fale isso. - ele olhava em meus olhos, procurando pingos de felicidade ou esperança.
- Na verdade, nem sei porque disse.
Pude ver um sorriso aliviado em seu rosto.
- Você é tão boba.
Eu? Boba? Magina...

SMILE 一番 イイ♀ - アンティック－珈琲店－

「SMILE 一番　イイ♀ - アンティック－珈琲店－」

煌けヴィーナス　美しく　煌けヴィーナス　金色(こんじき)に
僕の心　照らす君は　スマイル一番　イイ♀(おんな)

キレイなあの娘(こ)に嫉妬をしてる
あの娘みたいに生まれ変われたら
人生　少しは違ってたかもね　なんてmistakeな考えで
同じ人が二人いてもダメで
世界に一つだけの笑顔に魅かれる

輝けヴィーナス　無邪気に　輝けヴィーナス　誇らしく
この世界を君だけのライトで照らせ
煌けヴィーナス　美しく　煌けヴィーナス　金色に
僕の心　照らす君は　スマイル一番　イイ♀

派手な化粧にネイルなんかして
イケテル女になった気でいても
何か違うって気疲れをして　嘘をつくのも嫌でしょ?
ありのままの自分を愛さなきゃ
他人(ひと)を愛することさえ出来るわけがない

ときめくヴィーナス　純情に
ゆらめくヴィーナスはロマンス
恋する君に恋をしてしまうよ
キラウル瞳の眼差しで　揺れてる僕のこと見ないで
僕の胸を焦がす君は　スマイル一番　イイ♀

笑う事を恐れず　勇気を持てた君だけに
「がんばったね」と伝えてあげたいよ

輝けヴィーナス　無邪気に　輝けヴィーナス　誇らしく
この世界を君だけのライトで照らせ
煌けヴィーナス　美しく　煌けヴィーナス　金色に
僕の心　照らす君は　スマイル一番　イイ♀

君は僕の太陽さ ♥

「SMILE ichiban ii onna - Antikku Cafe」

Shine beautifully Venus, shine goldenly Venus
You who shine on my heart are the best kind of smiling woman

I'm jealous of that pretty girl
If I could be reborn like her
My life might have been a little bit different, it's a mistaking thinking that way
It wouldn't do for the same person to be two different people
I'm enchanted by your one of a kind smile

Shine innocently Venus, shine proudly Venus
Shine your light on the world
Shine beautifully Venus, shine goldenly Venus
You who shine on my heart is the best kind of smiling woman

Even if I had the desire to be a sexy woman
Who paints up her nails glamorously
I'm worried that something wouldn't be right, is it that I don't like lying?
If I can't love myself as I am
Then there's no reason that someone else should be able to love me

A heart pounding and pure hearted Venus
A flickering Venus is romance
I'm falling in love with you, who is in love
Don't look at me trembling with that hateful look
You who burn my heart, are the best kind of smiling woman

I'm not afraid to smile, and I want to say to you
Who has courage, "You gave it your best"

Shine innocently Venus, shine proudly Venus
Shine your light on the world
Shine beautifully Venus, shine goldenly Venus
You who shine on my heart is the best kind of smiling woman

You're my sun ♥

i want your love ♥

today is a new day, of course! but anyway
i'm happy

in this morning, when i was going to catch the bus to school, the sky was just gray. then, i saw 3 defined clouds, white lovely clouds. then, in the bus, those clouds were chasing me. and i saw more and more white clouds and a good part of the blue sky. then.. i saw one heart.
not so defined, but it was a shape of a heart. reminded me one heart.
was so lovely <3
and Smile Ichiban Ii Onna (girl with the best smile) from An Cafe started playing..

hoho ♥
love is good, dears, even when it hurts. because, at least, you feel something


cya ♥

Oh you're so naive yet so ♥

let's eat!

chooocolaaaateeee~


I just don't know what to say... i'm bored haha
and.. yea

bleeerrrrhhh
i'm just posting this random thing to.. idk.. for something xD


cya ♥

stop and think

And what's reality for you?

yay~

not the best layout ever, but i needed to use the new blogger's design tool
i had PT and EN test today, tomorrow i'll have chemestry one haha


"We were walking like two idiot kids, spinning around with each other, then suddenly I fell. You didn't want make me stay layed there laughting, so you held my hands. You have a clue about how much I wanted to run screaming of happyness? But I failed at trying to pull you closer to me, stay with me there, being near you.
Sorry if sometimes seems like I'm avoiding you, but there's one thing: I just cannot be near you so much time. You don't know and neither I can explain how much I need you. I'm failing myself just for acknowledge it.
But I learned something with my failed experiences: never give up. Never give in. Although, don't spend your time trying something that won't work out. You know what's good for you and what makes you happy. I know what is good for me: it's not you."

cool, huh?
i wish i could write more things, but i think and then when i try put on the paper or whatever it just fade away.. all my lovely ideas haha
into our brains should have a memory card. then we press a button and the memory card goes out, so we can put all our ideas in a special computer! or a USB cable entry into our noses..
bleeerrrrg, nono! this no! this would be really weird and.. errrggg
anyways, going back to a normal idea here..

forreal, i wish i could have a longer memory. things just fade away into my mind, or i change a few things in my thoughts, it gets more detailed.
maybe is the weather! it's simply freezing here. my nails doesn't even need polish: they are purple!!
i love/hate when this happens. love because it's funny and hate because it's really cold
but typing warm my hands up a little bit. good part of being computer'o holic!!! ♥ ♥ ♥


eerrrmmmmmm, i'm bored. i have to do my ARTS SEARCH LOL
i hate arts, sososososos badly..
but i love Lady GaGa.
so?






drugs? :l


cya ♥

happy valentine's

this is the day when people go out with their love, and it's funny to see how many people go out today
i got nothing and i don't have a boyfriend, so it's the single's day to me. i don't care too much about it. of course, it's good to have someone around you, although it's not everything
so i spend my saturday with thai. we went bowling, went to bookstores and went to some stores to check a few shoes. i'm quite sure that i'll get those lovely high heels. we call "ballet shoes", but's not as the ballet ones. anyways xD
it's really cute. and i want those colorful ghetto nike. haha they are lovely and really warming, as they are so big
or, instead, the boot i saw in one store. cowboy-ish style, really confortable

i spend my whole night watching Twilight. thai got 2 dvds by mc donalds and gave me one as i asked once and as i lost the promotion time
i went there and they already run over the dvds. i hope they do this for New Moon too
in some days is Eclipse preview and next day my birthday. such amazing gift! i hope that Eclipse be better than New Moon. i must say that i cried in all books and all movies haha
somehow it touches you, as you feel something like what Bella's feeling. it's really weird, but acceptable, especially with idiot and imature girls in this age
forreal, i hate imaturity. come and act like a child in front of me and you'll meet china!
i'm tired
i need go shopping for mosturizes, make up, brushes and cleansers and a lil more
and my mothermonster's CD. it never has in the fucking store! although, there's just one store.
anyways, i want to play guitar hero!
haha i battled with Slash and won HOHOHOHOa welcome to the jungle! but i prefer playing sweet child'o mine in GH2, in hard or expert. it's kinda better





cya ♥

you don't even imagine how big is my pain. in my leg!!!!!!!
and the cold weather is helping
oooh yea, everything i need now is leg pain ):

anyways
i'm bored, but Muse calms me down haha
nothing to wriiiiiiteeeeeeeeee


cya ♥

There's...

...Some people I wish I could avoid. Some people that I really couldn't need. Some people that shouldn't be here. A few things that are wrong in my life. Those few things I wish I could change.

There's my idiot mind versus my creepy lovely heart. Some words that couldn't be said before. Some feelings that shouldn't exist. Few feelings that hurts you in the weakest spot. Few things that are so small but they can destroy with your whole life.

There's some idiot people. Some brilliant minds. Some dumbs. Some people crying. Some people asking for any kind of help.

There's some people who really care about you. Some people who makes you laugh forreal. Some people who could die for you. Some people who could be really far away. One person that is really far away.

I don't know what to do, but I'll be fine in the end of the things :D

There was the little girl, burst into tears. She didn’t know what to do, it was simply killing her.

Her love has gone. She was alone, just by herself one more time.

How she can handle it?



The days have been pushed through the weeks, then through the months…

She has been carrying that for a long time, and she was carrying with a stupid fake smile in her face.

All she wanted was be safe again.

Was impossible to go out onto the streets without noticing people’s killing eyes repressive looks.

“I know my heart is not you”, she was repeating to herself about a thousand times before going sleep. Thousand counted times.

She needed a little rest of all this. All the pain that was burning into her was pushing her life to the wrong way. She was decaying, each day a little bit more.

How she can handle it?



The songs in her mind all of them are sad ones. Those happy friendly songs have been threw away, no more happiness in her eyes.

There were a few things that she needed to forget: the guy, her love for the guy, the guy’s love for her.

Counting the days until the day she could be happy again…

How can I handle it?

die alone cuz ur crazy

haha the dinner was good. i met some people that was my mate about.. +- 7 years ago, or more. and i re-met good friends, really good.
my make up is fuckin' over, i need take it off, but im sosososos lazy! u don't know how much my head hurts. damn coke!
but thankfully, there's no classes tomorrow! long life to holidays!!! YAY! ♥~
i'm feeling cold, headache, need take off my makeup..
since monday i was sleeping about 9~10pm, and now.. well, almost 1am.
this is simply not right, i should be sleeping, like a rock angel. so sweet, but nothing can wake me up though.
we took good pictures, i hopefully will put some here. if time and laziness allow me haha
i'm just like a sloth. not so much, but anyways. when i do lots of stuff in same time, like dancing, crazying, talking.. my head hurts so fuckin' bad, and there's nothing better than going sleep. it's the best thing for my head.
and i have a concert next week, or after. Armandinho's show. i simply don't like him, his freaky songs, but i'm going to know how's Carazinho. i never been there, and seems to be a cool city. also, Guta invited me and Ceci for going there. we are going to drink a lot, i'm fuckin' sure of it haha
it's going to be great anyways. well, will be if i don't freak out, or do anything completely craaazy!



i need listen some Lily Allen's songs, they calm me down and i can relax. but my eyes hurts so bad now, they seems to be heavy, they need be closed. so, i'll take my makeup and i'll sleep.
if i remember about something else, i'll write here. about the new songs i'm going to download, about mary kay's makeup time and.. yea.

cya ♥

pa-pa-po-poker face

life is such a wonderful loop: once you hurt someone, you'll get hurt by someone else.
ok, i don't know why i did say this. but anyways..
today i have a dinner, as thai's birthday "party"
will be pretty good, such rich restaurant haha

i got an B in my text, my freaky spooky text haha pretty good
my first grade in texting this bimester

i guess there's nothing to say, as usual. i mean, i do stuff and stuff, i'm not always stopped to the world. i laugh, i run, i.. i have a life, but i just forget. i really forget about things i say, things i do, it's weird! like.. blank!!
ooh, i lost my bus today. i had to take a normal bus. and it was actually pretty fast. i always get late if i lose the bus. it's my second lost about the bus this year haha
the funny thing is that i was like an idiot, just waiting for the bus, that i knew i lost. as a stupid kid, i was waiting there, waiting for a miracle, maybe. then, i realized that my dad was coming, with money, so i could take a normal bus. was really weird, but was funny after all lol

what else.. hoho..
i got a really cool coat, it's all grey white-ish, really warm and beautiful and it's a long coat, a purple poloish shirt, it's not totally polo because of the collar, but the pattern is like those polos haha i love this clothing. and a big nailon socked, all detailed. i'm going wear this tonight. with high heels, COOOURSE! hoho

i'm tired and bored by now. i'll wait for thai, she's going to take me for a make up class. she got it, and she could bring 3 friends. i'm one of those 3 friends haha

cya ♥


"Allow me to love you with unconditional and incomprehensible love".